where do I begin?

I am an artist who doesn't make art!

For the past 5 years, since my daughter was born, I've tried to go easy on myself and give myself a break. I chose to concentrate all of my attention on her. I told myself, “once she's in preschool, I'll have more time”, which turned into “once she's in Junior kindergarten” which leads us to now. Now she is in full-day kindergarten. While she is thriving, I on the other hand, am a bit lost.

Where do I begin, how do I begin to regain a sense of creativity?

How do you become creative after you've pro-created?!

I counted down the days until September and the first day of school, so excited, I couldn't wait to get “my time” back again. Before marriage and baby I was always fiercely independent and very selfish of “my time”. For the past five years, I gladly traded all of that to give my daughter as much of myself as I could and I loved it. I'm proud of myself for actually being able to pull it off. But now, how do I flip the switch?

September and October have come and gone and here I sit, no creative endeavors to show for it. No paintings or drawings in the works. Worse, no ideas. The well feels dry. The “my time” I was hungry for seems to get frittered away by chores, grocery shopping, chauffeuring, house keeping and general “busy work”. I guess I've been embracing distraction because I have no idea where to begin. I feel this fog in my brain and I need to find a way to clear it and get the creative juices flowing again.

Where do I begin? Well I guess with this blog!